HOW DO I LET GO OF ME

I have never considered myself self

centered.

I have always told myself

that I had always let God handle all my

trials.

I told myself I was honestly handing all my

care

over to God so I didn't have to be troubled

or ever feel alone or stranded.

One night I was discouraged, crying like a lost soul

questioning why God had not taken the burdens

I thought I so faithfully placed into His hands

and resolved them as I had planned.

I felt like I had done all that God asked of me.

Suddenly I realized I had been living in my

own fantasy.

If I had given all my burdens completely

over to God,

I would not be discouraged and feel lost and

abandoned.

Tears flowed down my face as I dropped to my

knees.

I prayed as I had never prayed before

for forgiveness of my self-centeredness

as to think I knew what was best for me

and what God should do for me to get it.

I did know that I was now where I should have been,

on my knees asking God to take over my life totally

and praying for forgiveness for being so full of ego.

Confessing my weaknesses, I was cleansed and set free.

As I arose from my knees I had a sense of

freedom

and a very heavy weight lifted from my

soul.

My mind kept hearing the Lord repeating:

"Now I can spare you and show you how

much I love you .

I will always keep My promises to

you.

You are My child and there is no greater love

than Mine."

Whenever the word "Why?" creeps into my thoughts

I drop to my knees and give that trial to God,

asking for wisdom to understand His plans for me.

…by Linda L. Wilson